So, as much as I don't want to admit this out loud (cuz I know some of you personally outside of DA), there's a few things I need to get outta my system, like extracting poison from the blood stream after a snake bite before inserting more poison of a different form orally. It's official; my depression has set back in with its friend bi-polar disorder. Dunno what did it today, but something snapped in my head and those two things which I've tried so goddamned hard to hide surfaced, whether anyone saw them or not. The mere fact that they escaped my mental control scares the living shit outta me. I don't want to go back to last year, but neither do I want to go back to popping happy pills like high school. We'll see what my shrink has to say about it (yes, I folded and am seeing a shrink bi-weekly; can this be one of those things that's never talked about, but acknowledged? Please?) next week.

I wonder what would happen right now if I gave my hand a notebook and a pencil.....guess we're gonna find out if I stay conscious long enough to organize my binder for the semester and then start "trancing". Hope your Monday was at least twice as better as mine, cuz then it would've at least been a bearable Hell.